About CouchSoldier

I am Christian who believes in Jesus Christ as my lord and savior, A Father of two beautiful daughters. I grew up and got into trouble young but one night I was laying in bed. I felt terrible for my actions, which would damage those around me. I had everything I thought I wanted as a child who looked up to people like Scarface, Pablo Escobar, John Dillinger and Muhamad Ali. But as I heart people physically protecting those who I loved or who apposed anything I stood for. I also heart people mentally destroying there self esteem, confidence and even breaking hearts. I was 16 the night I stepped back and took a look at my life. A look that brought light to how I was harming even those I loved. The very people I would have laid my life down for with out hesitation where suffering either because they looked up to me, loved me or even just affiliated there selves with me. For one of the very few times I was crying. But not because my dog had passed away or a friend had died. But because of who I was and the result of my actions. leading to new addictions for myself and others as well as the realization I had that; no one who was around me desired to do the right thing, I had never been with a girl who I could take to my grand mothers home and introduce her as my significant other. So I prayed asking God to give me a girlfriend who was beautiful. god fearing and who would love me for who I was, not for what I had to offer. The next day I would meet Leeanna Bessent. By far the most beautiful girl I had ever laid eyes on. We had met before but only for a moment back then I was invisible to her. But that day would be one of the many days I would fight to hold her heart. She was God fearing and I was another minus to society. But for reasons to this day she doesn't understand herself, she took an interest into me and later would become the mother Onisty & Maddy the two most beautiful children in the world. My own two daughters..... to be continued time to SLEEP